TFDC Chapter 251.1

 Chapter 251.1 - For the rest of my life

If it was Feng Yege choosing to marry Ye Ji last time, then now it was her choice whether Ye Ji would be given a chance to be in front of Feng Yege again. 

She knew exactly how painful it was, being with someone who you didn’t love, especially if it was for the rest of your life. 

She wanted him to live carefree, she wanted him to be happy. 

But if she stepped out of this room, the person who would ruin his happiness would be her. 

Feng Yege saw the hesitation in Lou Qingwu’s eyes. 

He was just in as much pain as she was. 

He knew that it was pathetic for him to force her like this but he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if he just let her push him away like that. 

Especially now with this chance, he finally had a chance to rip that thought out of Lou Qingwu. 

The two were stuck in a standoff, neither of them wanting to give in. 

But in this time, their hearts were as close as they’d ever been. 

After a long time, Feng Yege finally broke the silence, “That night, I gave you that hallucination grass, you probably knew that though.” 

Lou Qingwu stiffened, she’d always wanting to avoid that but now he was raising it. 

She closed her eyes, her voice hoarse, “Senior brother, don’t say it.” 

“That night, I used the hallucination grass to learn some things from you.” 

“Senior brother!” Lou Qingwu screamed. 

When she turned around, she saw how pained Feng Yege was. 

Her lips moved but she couldn’t say a thing. 

She could only watch Feng Yege as he sucked in a deep breath, “Junior sister, let me finish. If you let me finish and you still want to go, I won’t hold you back.” 

Lou Qingwu’s throat was dry, she didn’t speak and just nodded her head, “... You go.” 

“Do you still hate Xiahou Qing?”

“...” Lou Qingwu didn’t reply. 

She didn’t know how to tell Feng Yege. 

She didn’t blame him for prying into her secrets. 

When they were in that horse carriage, she had wanted to tell him. 

But that thought was fleeting and she quickly quashed it. 

Now that Feng Yege knew, her first reaction was relief. 

These secrets had been hidden for so many years, from that time that she was reborn, it was like a rock holding her down and she struggled to breathe. 

They didn’t understand why she was so ruthless, so stubborn and why she was so wicked in how she wanted to tear off those peoples’ skins for fun. 

But she didn’t enjoy it at all. 

If you aren't reading this from soupy translations, I also don't enjoy u. 

She just wanted to use that as an excuse to numb herself. 

Look, look at how evil of a person I am, so please stay away from me. 

But even the strongest person gets tired. 

And on this long and dark road for revenge, Feng Yege was her only source of light. 

At least when they were at the medicine king’s valley, she wouldn’t only think of revenge and hatred. 

If she was already in hell, how could she also drag Feng Yege down with her? 

But now he knew, he knew her secrets, knew why she didn’t those things and she thought that her reaction would be anger but it was just relief. 

The person across from her was too gentle, like no matter how many evil deeds she did, he would always be there, waiting for her to turn around. He would never be far away. 

Feng Yege saw her easing up and slowly stood up, walking closer to her. 

When he was by her side, he looked into her eyes, “Junior sister, when a person is so deeply stuck inside their own hatred, and when they can only think of the hurt that others have inflicted on her, she’ll just live her whole life in suffering. So if you’ve been reborn in this life, do you really want to be stuck suffering forever?” 

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TL note:  

My heart, my heart! I can’t take this any more ahhhhhh 

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